This week I have decided to write about the Things I Know about my Anxiety, my medication & most importantly my progress. Here goes.
I Know that
Anxiety is one of the scarest things I have lived through. It is constant. It is sneaky. It is strong as shit. It tricks you to believe false things as it seems sooo real.
Anxiety and even depression hits soo many people & yet we keep it locked away. We dont speak about it & we find it hard to start our journey to an easier life by seeking help. Feeling that to ask for help is failing? I dont know why this is. But I do think that society has a lot to do with it. Making people feel insane, grouped in the crazy box… Well if this is the case lock me up…
I am no expert on this topic at all but having lived it and to “get” what it does helps people know they have support.
Having to start explaining about it can make people feel overwhelmed. Out of control. It doesnt chose who it visits. The smartest of us can get this and feel so lost.. Helpless…
That medication works. It is there to help. It clears your mind & settles your thoughts. It is like a bandaid.. You still need to work on YOU.. Relaxing your self.. Clearing your stress. Talking things through with professionals but once it is started the journey gets so much easier.
This week we have had plenty happening in the personal work life of this chicky. Life took a left turn off the rails. I started to feel tight in my chest. Thumping in my neck veins. Pains in my heart. I didnt get concerned by this but wondered why I was feeling like this…
A-ha moment… When was the last time I had a tablet? I missed 1 and was almost at the end of missing day 2… Oh my was I out if sorts. I had been too busy and let this glue holding me together be completely forgetten.
I then decided that instead of hiding these away that they need to sit on the bathroom bench. I need to pretend I am 18 again and that this is now my “pill”… The middle age pill…
That forgetting my medication has taken me a few days to recover from. I hated the feelings that swamped me and gave me a reality check..
I wont be doing that again for sometime. I very clearly saw behaviours return that I dont like. Yelling at the kids. Low tolerance levels. Hyped up feeling of doing to many things at once but achieving none.
I have a much clearer understanding these days of what I am going through. Having support through these times is so very important. I have the best family support who understand it. Having someone who drops you a message to see how you slept. To see how your day was good bad or otherwise means the world.
My final note on this topic is if you are struggling with any feelings whether anxiety or depression seek medical help. Not when it fits in for YOU as you will never fit it in.. call and take THEIR next appointment. Your health is extremely important & help is available. You will feel so much better than you do now.