Hooray after going to bed at 9pm and sleeping till 6am it was nice to of slept the night through. The one thing other than that was how when I woke the panic that hit my chest…. I must start the day stressing about it before it even begins. Today was the first time I was aware that this was how I started each day… WOW any wonder I would freak out.
My spots have settled… A mozzie or bed bug up the leg of my pjs…. Who knows but maybe I should tape the bottoms of the legs up?? Or buy a new bed – arrggh I even vaccume the mattress when I change the sheets each week…wont bother any more !!
I can feel that my soul is more settled today. But my body hasnt slowed down. It is reacting but I am remaining calm.
I slowed down today. I sat down when my body was feeling fluttered. Each time I felt my heart & chest reacting I would make sure I stopped to breath.
Today I spoke to several people & found out they are travelling along with me & following my stories. For this I am very thankful. The words I heard were reassuring & encouraging. You might not all make comments but it is so nice to know I dont have start from scratch telling my story.
I need to learn to stop & smell the roses…. Instead I swing out the window while steering with my toes and rip out a bunch as I speed past. Mmmm I thought that was enjoying life…